Raise your hand if you didn’t reach all your 2018 goals…

If your hand is raised, you’re not alone. There’s more than one goal I didn’t come close to reaching this year, but I did reach a few super important ones. And at this point, that’s all that matters to me.

If I had to describe my 2018 in one word, it would be “preparation.” For the first time in my life, I saw my entire year become consumed with preparation. Without exaggeration, I spent every day of this year preparing for everything I could possibly prepare for. (Side note: I think this was the first time in my life I allowed myself adequate space to prepare, and I’m thankful for that.)

I spent the first few months of 2018 preparing to leave my full-time job, I spent the summer preparing my body, mind and soul for a productive second half of 2018, I spent autumn on my health – physically and mentally preparing myself for an unexpected surgery, and finally, I spent the introduction of the holiday season preparing to move into my first very own apartment with my boyfriend.

Now, it’s December and I’m finding myself preparing for all the things I’d like to see come to fruition next year.

That said, I’m extremely excited for 2019 and all the new goals I have. Preparation wasn’t only a description of my year, it was a prescription. I didn’t go into 2018 “okay,” and preparation was the year’s biggest lesson for me. Life didn’t give me much time to make a choice as it halted me, pushed me down and told me to stop. Just stop. Stop rushing, stop being unrealistic and stop using energy on anything that will get in the way of the preparation, patience and peace of mind I needed in order to be “okay.”

This year, I’ve had so much time to spend alone and work on bettering myself, and I 100% believe I wouldn’t be where am I physically or mentally, if it wasn’t for all the time I spent preparing. Really, I don’t know if I’d be “okay” right now.

I remember writing out my 2018 goals, blurting out all the things I wanted…with essentially no plan. “By this month, I’ll have this.” By this date, I’ll do this.” As the days and months quickly jetted by, I learned how unrealistic and unfocused I was. It was March, and I hadn’t crossed off one of the goals I had predicted by spring. I didn’t have a real plan on how to achieve any of them.

Tough reminder: Manifesting means more than just saying what you want once, or even saying it twice. It takes a lot more work and focus than that.

I refuse to go into 2019 that way, without a personal plan. I’m hoping that everyone reading this will take the time to map out and truly manifest the things you plan to work toward and prepare for. In the second half of 2018, that’s all I’ve done and I couldn’t be happier or feel more proud of myself.

Let’s not set ourselves up for any more “failures.” Let’s really get this s**t in 2019!